Monday, September 24, 2012

Stranded...

One of the most frustrating things about life here in Ethiopia is the network "problems." Most everyone seems to have a mobile phone. Even shepherds tend their flocks while talking on the phone...quite comical to see. But there is often a problem with the connection. Either the signal is too weak or it's busy. Or there is NO NETWORK. This is especially true in our school area. 


Not being able to connect has a way of making you feel lonely. Almost "stranded." Stuck somewhere, left alone, in a place that often feels not comfortable. I've felt this alot in recent weeks. It's very easy to feel out of place when everyone says to you "forengie" (meaning foreign). And I so often see random cattle standing here or there- looking alone and lost- and sometimes I feel like saying- yeah, you're out of place too. I know how you feel buddy.


I think some times and in some seasons of life you can feel lonely, where you kind of feel like you don't belong. Whether you're single or married- young or old or somewhere in the middle- that feeling can hit you and it's hard to shake. Maybe everyone is busy and you're not. Everyone has someone to hang out with but you. Everyone has work but you haven't found any yet.  We've all hit seasons and sometimes days or just hours when you feel alone.   With the network problems here, it seems to hit me alot.

God has been reminding of many truths during these "network troubled" times.
First- and most important- is my network with Him remains. I'm connected to Him. I'm a blood-bought child of the Most High God- and with Him- I'm always connected IF I choose to be. He's always there- ready to listen, advise, comfort, direct. 
 
John 15: 5-17
I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from me you can do nothing...If you remain in me and my words remain in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you. This is to my Father’s glory, that you bear much fruit, showing yourselves to be my disciples.

As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you. Now remain in my love. If you keep my commands, you will remain in my love, just as I have kept my Father’s commands and remain in his love. I have told you this so that my joy may be in you and that your joy may be complete. My command is this: Love each other as I have loved you. Greater love has no one than this: to lay down one’s life for one’s friends. You are my friends if you do what I command. I no longer call you servants, because a servant does not know his master’s business. Instead, I have called you friends, for everything that I learned from my Father I have made known to you. You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you so that you might go and bear fruit—fruit that will last—and so that whatever you ask in my name the Father will give you. This is my command: Love each other.

Ephesians 2: 12-13; 19-22
...remember that at that time you were separate from Christ, excluded from citizenship in Israel and foreigners to the covenants of the promise, without hope and without God in the world. But now in Christ Jesus you who once were far away have been brought near by the blood of Christ.
...you are no longer foreigners and strangers, but fellow citizens with God’s people and also members of his household, built on the foundation of the apostles and prophets,with Christ Jesus himself as the chief cornerstone. In him the whole building is joined together and rises to become a holy temple in the Lord. And in him you too are being built together to become a dwelling in which God lives by His Spirit.

Sometimes we connect to other networks- maybe friends or co-workers- BEFORE we connect with Him. Big mistake. Those can drain us, distract us, and deplete us of perspective and energy. God is giving us Himself- His words...His wisdom- His strength- through His Word- DAILY. If we don't check that "mail"- connect into that network that is always available to us- FIRST...that's not wise.

I remember one time God reminded me of this in a big way. I was working as a youth pastor at a church in Ohio. It felt like I was at church ALL the time, so me and God were okay, right? At least that was what I thought. Well, one day I was out driving and I saw my Dad walking at a park on a path by himself. I tried to yell out my window, but he couldn't hear me. My Dad looked alone- and I wanted to be with him. I turned my car around, parked and ran to catch up with him. We ended up walking for about two hours, it was one of the sweetest walks and talks ever, just me and my Dad.

My Dad- Jim Garrett, the best Dad in the world!
Later- when I was driving away- I remember praying- thank you God for letting me have that sweet time with my Dad. Help me be able to do that more. And that's when I heard God say...you know what Holly, you are often "doing" things for me. But sometimes you forget to just "be" with me. I'm walking in the parks of your life alone, I long for your fellowship. Just like you just ran to your Dad, I want you to seek me that way. I'm ready to walk with you, talk with you, share your life. OUCH. In the cool of the morning, in the cool of the evenings, on our lunch breaks, in our school cafeterias, in our office cubicles, in our hallways and sanctuaries, our heavenly Father is there, longing for us to be with Him. Do you make the time to connect? Do you run to Him, seek Him, do you miss Him when you don't spend time with Him? The other day a little boy sleeping on his dad's shoulders while his father carried him through the fields brought all this to mind as well. Our Dad is with us, for us.  Do we spend time with Him?


Isolation can be a killer. Our Enemy, Satan, likes to pick on and mess with those who look "stranded"- alone- away from the safety of the pack or herd or family. It's a classic trick of our enemy. Watch out for that. You are being "hunted." Satan wants to steal your joy, your peace, and your desire or confidence to connect to God. Don't let him do that! 

1 Peter 5:7-9
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. Be alert and of sober mind. Your enemy the devil prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour. Resist him, standing firm in the faith, because you know that the family of believers throughout the world is undergoing the same kind of sufferings.

John 10:10
The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy; I have come that they may have life, and have it to the full. 
 
What God has also been showing me is that I'm not "stranded" the way that I think or feel sometimes. Stranded can mean- left in an unfavorable place- without the means to depart. God has me strategically placed. And I am always actually stranded- (a good thing)...woven- my strand with others, into a big global diverse wonderful family- and story, that is eternal. 
 

We have Him, We have each other. And God is the third strand that can keep us together, strong. We are knitted to each other and hemmed to Him.  Stranded in all that is GOOD. :-)

Ecclesiastes 4: 9-12
Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work: If either of them falls down, one can help the other up. But pity anyone who falls and has no one to help them up. Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken. 

Psalm 139:5
You hem me in behind and before, and you lay your hand upon me. 
 
Isaiah 41:8-11
But you, Israel, my servant, Jacob, whom I have chosen, you descendants of Abraham my friend, I took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, ‘You are my servant’; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand. “All who rage against you will surely be ashamed and disgraced; those who oppose you will be as nothing and perish.

As we continue in whatever field or season God has us in, may we remember- the big family and storyline that we are part of. And holding to this truth, may we continue to run on with great joy!

ONWARD- Grateful to be Stranded Together with You!

Praises
-I fought off a cold this past week, - no fun. But I'm feeling much better now. Praise God for overall good health!
-I was able to get out of Addis for a few days and it was very refreshing to see outside of the city. My mouth literally hung open as the miles passed by at the beautiful African countryside that has been my home for over a year. The beautiful land, people, and even monkeys stealing my coffee- made me smile.
-I've started raising money for a ticket to come stateside and I'm thankful for those who have given. And I'm so grateful to those who have continued to provide financial and prayer support.
-The rain is making an exit- and sunny days have begun to return. Praising God for this change of season!!!

Prayer Requests
-Our staff reports to campus in one week, classes start back in two weeks. As I begin another semester- for as long as God has me here- please pray I can be the best instructor I can be- that I can be an advocate for the students- having the strength, patience and courage to be what God needs me to be here.
-The new year, 2005, is underway and I have a new "plan" for being at my best for God- which includes- physical, spiritual, financial, professional goals. Please pray I can put these in place in honor of our God
-Please pray for a friend of mine who has applied for a visa to the USA, that this may be granted; and also for my sister who is in the process of obtaining a work visa for the Czech. She has an opportunity to teach at a high school and a work permit is needed for this.
-Please pray for many still seeking work, that God will open up doors and that hearts will stay encouraged.
-Please pray for our staff and students- for good health, strong families, and good focus
-Continue to pray for my parents and sister- for a great and blessed and healthy fall season for them- in Ohio and the Czech Republic
-Please pray for the draft of my book, that as I continue to write and things get busy with classes again, that I will still be able to write.
-Please keep Ethiopia and its leadership in prayer, as new leadership arises- that it may be blessed and favored by God.

Thank you for continuing to be with me on this journey.  

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Short Fuse

One thing I've grown to love and appreciate about Africa is candles. Electricity is a huge luxury most of the world does not enjoy. Those who have it here realize its not reliable. At any given time and at any given location, it can be lights out. 


God taught me something recently during one of these "lights out" evenings.

Like I've share recently- my time of taking a break from classes- has quickly diminished. In a few short weeks- it looks like school will start early and I will be teaching again.

Uh oh. I say that because I've noticed in myself a very "short fuse." My aggitation has been high and very quickly things that would normally make me chuckle or things I could usually just shrug off or ignore- it's not the case these days. 

It's a critical cultural adjustment time. I remember learning that well in Haiti. There comes a point when you're living cross culturally when the "honeymoon" phase ends and everything becomes irritating. Many field workers often go home at this point, for good. But it's actually part of acclimating. If you can push through this time, you actually can begin to really deeply culturize- if that's a word. :-)

One even just before dark, the power went out. I went looking for my candles- and noticed most of them were little, and what was up with the wicks being so small? I couldn't find any candles that seemed to have any wicks left that I could use to burn for light.


Then I found one and broke it apart and pulled a little and I realized (suburb girl that I am)- that there was PLENTY of wick left in the candles. You just had to break it apart and pull it the right way and you could still have something to light. 


And that's when God spoke to me. Holly- you might feel like you're at the end of your rope, your fuse is too short, and you have no energy, no patience left. But remember- at the core of you is ME. I might have to break you a little and stretch you a little to get more to the core, but there's more you have to give, you still have light to shine. 

And then He pointed me to these verses over the next few days:

Isaiah 40:28-31
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall; but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.

Matthew 11:28
Come to me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden light.

Galatians 6:9
Let us not become weary in doing good, for at the proper time we will reap a harvest if we do not give up.

Philippians 4:13
I can do everything through him who gives me strength.

Romans 12:11-12
Never be lacking in zeal, but keep your spiritual fervor, serving the Lord. Be joyful in hope, patient in affliction, faithful in prayer.

2 Corinthian 9:10-11
Now he who supplies seed to the sower and bread for food will also supply and increase your store of seed and will enlarge the harvest of your righteousness. You will be made rich in every way so that you can be generous on every occasion...

2 Corinthians 4:7-9; 16-18
But we have this treasure in jars of clay to show that this all-surpassing power is from God and not from us. We are hard pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed....

Therefore we do not lose heart. Though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are being renewed day by day. For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. So we fix our eyes not on what is seen, but on what is unseen. For what is seen is temporary, but what is unseen is eternal.

2 Corinthians 12:9
My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.

So, if you've just started something and you're already tired. Or you've been "at" something for awhile and you feel like if you don't get a break or a breather soon...you're going to drop something or cave in...God might be just strengthening your core. If He's allowing it to continue, you can trust Him to give you energy, patience, love, even joy- when you're OUT. He can help your light shine.

Matthew 5:14-16
You are the light of the world. A city on a hill cannot be hidden. Neither do people light a lamp and put it under a bowl. Instead they put it on its stand, and it gives light to everyone in the house. In the same way, let your light shine before men, that they may see your good deeds and praise your Father in heaven.

  
May God break us and stretch as needed- so we can be light wherever God needs us and for how long is needed.

Onward we run...

Praises
-Ethiopia just celebrated a new year yesterday, 2005 began.  It was a big E year for me. I praise God for his sustaining power and all He has taught me living here. I'm thankful for the friendships and relationships formed and strengthened and new ones made. I'm humbled to have been here to invest in the lives of students.

Prayer Requests
-For the new year, 2005- for Ethiopia as a country- that new leadership will arise and this will be the year of the Lord's favor and blessing for this country.
-For my new personal and professional goals for the new E year, that God will help me maximize my time remaining.
-That as I begin a new semester- that God will give me favor with students and staff and that He will use me in whatever way He wants to.
-That God will help me have time to write my book.
-For the way ahead, I do feel like I am to come out of Ethiopia soon, that God will open that up as He wills.
-I'm still raising money for airfare costs when I do come home, please pray for that and if God lays it on your heart to give to that, let me know.
-Many dear brothers and sisters still needing breakthroughs with employment, family, finances, etc.

Thank you for being on the journey with me! May we trust Him as we run on.

Blessings and Happy New Year from Ethiopia!
Holly

Monday, September 3, 2012

The Breaking Dawn

It has seemed to be dark days in Ethiopia in recent weeks. The rain and clouds and heavy downpours- common for this time of year- seem to have picked up their intensity. 

Then came the deaths of two prominent Ethiopian leaders. One, the leader of the Orthodox Church. The other, the Prime Minister. The ground felt shaky. There was much wailing and weeping on the streets. Taxis were quiet as news reports and updates were given. Memorials were set up in various places. Candles were lit. There seemed to be a sense of sorrow in the air. A blanket of heaviness was felt.

Yet through the past two weeks, surprisingly- the sun has broken through. Promising the rains would soon be over and a new season of light and warmth was ahead. It's been shocking to see it back in its full splendor. 


To me, it was almost like God was giving a preview, a glimpse, of coming times. I felt God saying a new dawn was breaking over this land and people. I felt a stirring of hope every time I felt the rays of sun. The kids here deserve a bright future so much- a new future- where they don't have to beg on the streets for bread or cry at night because they're cold.


My students and all those those working hard deserve a future where they can get a good education and find good work. Where they can provide for their families and be proud and responsible for the lives they've been given.


It's always darkest before the dawn. I felt God saying to me and to Ethiopia the past few weeks- hold on- dawn is breaking, this is the beginning. I was encouraged by these scriptures:

Psalm 30:5
...weeping may stay for the night, but rejoicing comes in the morning. 
 
Psalm 126: 5-6
Those who sow with tears will reap with songs of joy. Those who go out weeping, carrying seed to sow, will return with songs of joy, carrying sheaves with them. 
 
Psalm 46
God is our refuge and strength, an ever-present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear, though the earth give way and the mountains fall into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam and the mountains quake with their surging.There is a river whose streams make glad the city of God, the holy place where the Most High dwells. God is within her, she will not fall; God will help her at break of day. Nations are in uproar, kingdoms fall; He lifts his voice, the earth melts. The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress. Come and see what the Lord has done,....He has brought on the earth. He makes wars cease to the ends of the earth.  He breaks the bow and shatters the spear; He burns the shields with fire. He says, “Be still, and know that I am God; I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth.” The Lord Almighty is with us; the God of Jacob is our fortress.

Isaiah 9:2
The people walking in darkness have seen a great light; on those living in the land of deep darkness a light has dawned.

Isaiah 43:18-19
Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland. 
 
Psalm 18:28
You, LORD, keep my lamp burning; my God turns my darkness into light. 
 
1 Peter 2:9
...you are a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that you may declare the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. 
 
If you're in a dark place- maybe it's isolation or loneliness. Maybe it's fatigue or discouragement. Maybe it's disappointment or confusion. Maybe it's weariness looking for work or for the next thing to open...God says...hold on...you're dawn is breaking. It's right there. Just hold on. 

Praying for you as you pray for me! May we not lose hope!!!

Praises from Here
-It's been peaceful here as the Prime Minister was buried yesterday and the national time of mourning ended. So grateful for peace and for God's glimpses of a coming dawn!

Prayer Requests
(some of these are repeats)
-Please pray for Ethiopia in the days ahead, as new leadership is put in place. That God's "dawn will break."
-Please pray for our students and staff- that our break will be a good one and that new staff needed will be recruited. Three new departments are opening up next semester- almost tripling our student numbers.
-Continue to pray for many globally waiting for their next job assignment to open up. May they stay encouraged and their dawn break!
-I'm still trying to catch my breath, work on my book, catch on emails, and pray for all that is ahead. Pray that I can do all those things- while also resting.
-Our school plans to open early, in one month. I need prayer for what my role will be in the time ahead. While also making good use of this "down time."
-I'd like to get a draft of my book completely written, please pray for that.
-Ethiopia is getting ready to end its year, 2004. A new year, 2005, begins on September 11. Please pray as one year ends and a new year begins, that hope is felt.

And for all those celebrating Labor Day today with a long weekend- I hope it's one of rest and reflection. Also of preparation for the new fall season ahead. As high school and college football kicks off, temperatures cool, school and ministries start fall programming- may this be your greatest season yet for our God. So honored to be on the journey with each of you.

Praying for you as you pray for me!

Onward With You in the Fields,
Holly